But in the end
one needs more courage to live
than to kill himself
It’s been the last season of a certain way of playing and living a Rock ‘n’ roll we still liked. Then, the impression is that the flame started to waver, until it went out completely. And someone must’ve been so mad till they couldn’t bear anymore. They just picked up and left. Because everyone has their own story and is “free to decide”. Someone still says that when you are a person with skills and talents, you cannot ruin your life, “it’s stupid.” As if creativity and balance can easily live together in harmony, in the same body. As if there is no system around an artist that, after creating it, always tends to squeeze it to the bone and then leave it there, alone, to deal with its destiny of fool with no more inspiration.
The year 1997 seems to represent the absolute height of this inspiring music period marked by Electronics and Acid House. Among that year releases: Pop by U2, Ultra by Depeche Mode, Ok Computer by Radiohead, Urban Hymns by The Verve, The fat of the Land by The Prodigy, Dig your own hole by The Chemical Brothers, Homework by Daft Punk, Vanishing Point by Primal Scream, Homogenic by Björk, Dead Elvis by Death in Vegas. The title from the Oasis album looks like a great slogan: Be here now. That was the last period before the Internet started to take hold and change the rules of the game. To rape once again the old spirit of Rock, made of empathy and the capacity to suffer — and, in suffering, to remain kids forever.
And apparently not everyone is able to find the strength to carry on, without this lifeblood. Too much pain, maybe too much nostalgia. Between 2017 and 2019, Chris Cornell, Dolores O’Riordan and Keith Flint took their own lives, someway in the wake of the “kill yourself” mantra of their late forerunner Kurt Cobain of Nirvana. And we love to remember them after one year of Keith’s death.
I’m free to decide, I’m free to decide
And I’m not so suicidal after all
I’ve always had this thing inside me that, when I’m done, I’ll kill myself
Kill your health and kill yourself
And kill everything you love